Sean Robert gordon - Online Memorial Website

I cant believe that youre gone after all that weve been through..Damn I love you ..I saw you in a casket today smiling and just sleeping..and I felt youre presence you gave me this hug that comforted me towards the day..

Babe,give me a strength to get through this,,they all love you and so do I and thank you for being there and encouraging me to go back on track..Marigrace told me how you miss me Damn I do too every minute and every hour of the day..Daniel and Ryan are the greatest they love you..Daniel told me today that I am always going to be part of this family cause I know Ive been good to you..I met katie your cousin she's great she's engage Sean,I know that marigrace might be on the same track but give it some time and I'll talk to her... right now she's just having a hard time dealing with this and I know you might think that I am a bad influence but I turned out good because of those mistakes..let her get through this..

Fatima is amazing and Anthony is just the greatest I love them both,you left a good memory of you..I know we didnt have a child but pls give me a chance to be one for anthony..I hope you would allow me to be a mom to him..Sean,but pls help mom to get through this you know that your her first born and I dont know how am I going to help her to get through this She love you so much..even just talk to her in a dream let her know that youre okay and youre happy..I dont know how am I going to do this..but all I know is they are my family now..and they are a part of me because of you..Allie told me that I was your wife..and I will always be..I will make you proud and youll be seeing me up there smiling and saying I'm proud of you Sheena..help me though...

watch over youre pretty awesome children especially anthony..your son is a spinning image of you..I just couldnt help it but cry everytime I think of it...Fatima told me this morning Daddy's watching me where??

baby,its so hard to get through this but today is the last time that I will ever see you..dont ever let go of us..cause if the time comes that I'm ready to go there I want you to be the first one to welcome me up there..and We both fly our wings to Baguio..that means for eternity..

I love you so much.....always be happy!!and I know youre at peace..

  May 12,2007 when I found out what happened it finally sink in..When I called his mom and tried to find out if its true I couldnt believe it..I was shocked ,cried myself to sleep I couldnt even sleep the whole time..I remember when we were together when he used to sleep in the couch..I slept downstairs hoping he would just talk to me and just let me know that things are okay..

       It was cold,but no voice to be heard..I used to wake him up with kisses and hold his hand for me to be able to go to sleep..We were together for quite a while and I love him so much that my anger overclouded me when he left..

I tried to commit suicide when he left but damn everytime I do that someone or somebody is saving me..and now he died I should have save him I should have been there..and now he's gone Sean,I'll always remember you,you are the one that I love and will always think of..youre in a better place nowI know youre happy  and at peace and if the time comes that its my turn to go pls welcome me back in your heart..

   your friends are always thinking of you your family loves you,your children will miss you and I will continue to be a part of them and love them as much as possible..Guide them in your own possible way pls still make us feel that your there watching us..baby,I'll continue your dreams I'll be back in school and fight my illness..I'll be finishing school and youll be proud of me..I'll see your mom as much as possible and make her feel that youre still there and anthony and marigrace..if I have to trade my life for you to live I will do it..damn I miss you so much..and love you.

I miss you..

   I know I almost lost it but what Can I do things are not well when it comes to my idiocracy..I forgot that I couldnt hold a bird if I wanted to I needed him for console and as a companion but He bails off.. today I had a wonderful day when I woke up feeling giddy and happy...I thought sweet new man again lolz that's funny but I have an email from someone who I was about to push in my past..

    I still dont trusts the words...that is coming out from his mouth he took advantage of my kindness twice and I'm not going to fall from that again..

   I'll see what the future will bring for both of us we might not be together or be together who knows ..or sometimes I would say who cares??after all life has to move on...

    I  miss my lil boy though for once I became a mother to this boy and it made me happy though he's not mine...

  I never acted out and pretended I was the same when he left and I will always will be..the sweet loving and kind person..but sometimes people has their own downfalls and part of that was me and my old self who fights and have self issues..

   I care about him and so is his family but I need to love myself first before anyone after all prayers and forgiveness is the key